Timing

I remember a time in my life when I was trying to get a job in a certain position. I tried so hard by knowing the position back and forth, praying and even going on several interviews but nothing was ever offered!! At one moment I became so frustrated and wanted to throw in the towel and then I heard God say "You won't get the job because that is not what I want for you right now. I will continue to let you get the interviews but you will not get the job". I heard Him loud and clear and proceeded as I was with the position I was already in. I eventually left this job due to many factors and many years there but more importantly I left because God told me to go. I didn't have a job lined up or anything and I wasn't going to ask for unemployment either. Little did I know that the night before I was writing my resignation letter I had an email sitting in another account that I didn't see until a few days later and it was a job offer. I said "whoa and yes I will accept". Now it wasn't the job I wanted but it was one that I needed and in that position I was able to build new friendships, see old coworkers and humble myself more. It was all preparation for where I am today.

Exactly 9 months on the job I receive an out of the blue call to check out a position and see if it is something I am interested in. I did and I was interested so I applied. Went on the interview 2 days later and played the waiting game for the call back. I waited a week!! The beauty in my waiting is that I never stopped operating in the current position at the time as if I was done. My work ethic was still remarkable and smiled upon as usual. When I finally heard that I had been offered the job I was so elated. I thanked God and remembered the day that I prayed and walked the very grounds the previous year of where I would be employed. It was about Gods timing and He was preparing me to be a  perfect fit in this position and to surround me around the right people and He did just that! I am always Amazed by His Grace!

I have a testimony and I am sharing because I know there are some people who are almost at the point of throwing in the towel, don't do it. You feel like it is pointless and you will never accomplish your goal, change your thinking. Don't give up because it doesn't look or feel good, keep going and moving forward and having a positive mindset because that is where you will find that what you are waiting for isn't far at all. What I realized is if I had gotten the position I wanted prematurely I wouldn't have the same satisfaction as I have now. I am thankful that I took the Pressure and Pushed through to receive my ultimate Prize. It was worth it and paying off in so many ways and it shall continue. 

Fae

Hurts like Brand New Shoes

I was listening to a Sade song named Pearls and the lyrics were quite interesting. One of the lines said "She lives the life she didn't choose to live and it hurts like brand new shoes" and that really made me think about how brand new shoes have to be broken in a couple times for the perfect comfort. Well as people we have to be broken in and broken out of stubborn ways that hurts those we love and ourselves. The joy about us being broken is that we can be fixed. We can be corrected on what was wrong and move past it knowing the right tools so we don't have to get back to the broken place. Brokenness doesn't mean you are no good and should be thrown away, it means you are stretching to be that perfect fit just like those brand new shoes that will eventually become your favorite shoes. Become your favorite you! 

Fae

Feelings

The common sayings now are "get out your feelings" or "I'm in my feelings". What is that? See we use these phrases so often that it becomes us. Feelings are temporary and most of the time based off whatever you are experiencing at the moment. When you wake up in the morning and get nicely dressed for work and take your time you are feeling happy and complete. Next moment you get in your car and there was an accident which will make you late, now you are frustrated and have road rage. Rush into your job, clock in, have your cup of Joe and now you are back on track with your good feelings. Within 3 hours you have flip flopped based on yourself and outside factors. This shows that YOU have control over your feelings and how you shouldn't let the bad or outside things overtake you. Don't let your those moments make you curse but instead find some good in it all like being thankful it wasn't you dealing with the flat tire or car accident that made you late. Feelings make us do some jacked up things and then after we do it we can't believe we actually did it. The next time the feelings get the best of you, sing one of my favorite songs by Maze and Frankie Beverly "Happy Feelings in the Air". It's so soulful and will bring you back to reality and to a positive place.  

Fae

Baby Steps

When we see a 10 month baby take their first steps we are excited, filled with joy and video recording it for all to see. Those steps are a very needed and a necessary part of the journey you are about to embark upon for the rest of your life. But why in life as an adult when people make baby steps in becoming a better person, physical fitness or eating better nobody celebrates and jump for joy? In life we often pick and choose what is deemed as celebratory but everything is a reason to be happy and excited. What may be small to you is huge to the next person so learn to jump, smile, clap and keep pushing them forward because at one point in time they were that 10 month old baby who is now a full grown adult who now runs but still needs the support of others to never stop. 

Fae

Last Breath

Life is so precious and everyday we should be grateful for it! Oftentimes when hurt and disappointed we forget how words and anger can rip others and ourselves apart. We don't think about how senseless it is at the moment because our minds are stuck on saying what we feel. We have to stop using our breath to tear people down and instead lift them up. We all need someone and the very person who is doing the most damage needs more love than ever. So if you are the one being torn, stay strong and speak positive to others for you know not what they go through or are experiencing and if you do know pray for them. Remember life is precious and we should value it each day we are alive. Don't let a moment or situation dictate who you are in each day or for the rest of your life. Speak life and not death, start today and use your breath wisely.  

Fae